The music cd

Tonight makes me cry to your picture

And the note you left under my pillow.

"Tonight we are young" and I know

You'd carry me home from to-night.

You are beautiful, so we are.

I can't "leave that all behind."

Your smile burnt to my mind

"Makes me wanna" "dance, dance, dance."

If tonight seems distant to us

I don't need to close my eyes.

It's all too vivid, a second ago

I've seen you, I smell you, alright.

Tonight we've "got stories to tell"

"So please, please, please"

Let's "come together", don't dare leave

If at all is meant to be, you with me.

Beril 22/03/12

Right?

You make mistakes. What a routine. You will get it Right, am I right? Rules, exceptions, Tales and stories Confusing you, What do you think? You play it hard Then sit back, watch. You play it good Then you skrew up. You want it here Then can’t just stay. You want by heart Then it breaks up. No matter, what A happy ending? No matter what You don’t fit in. Right? Am I right?

Beril 09/04/11

That feeling

I’m looking for something
I don’t know what it is
My mind tries hard
What is it? Oh what is it?

I wake up after midnight
Look at the street lamps across
Try to remember it
What was it? Oh what was it?

That feeling I have
As if I’ve forgotten to do something
That feeling I have
As if I’m half, I’m missing.

I skim through my folders
Hoping for a hidden signal
My heart beats by prying
What is it? Oh what is it?

I open up a new tab
It’s not on side bar or history
I stare at empty page thinking
What was it? Oh what was it?

That feeling I have
As if I’ve forgotten to do something
That feeling I have
As if I’m half, I’m missing.

Beril

09/09/10

Hope

Hope II by Gustav Klimt, 1907/8

"Whoever wants to know something about me -- as an artist, the only notable thing -- ought to look carefully at my pictures and try to see in them what I am and what I want to do."Klimt

Hope

I’m waiting for something that will never come.
The hope is keeping me from giving up.
I know I make too much out of thoughts.

I always pursue what I’m told I can’t have.
The hope is keeping me from giving up.
I know I'm stubborn, maybe even competent.

I’m mourning the absence of an imagined loss.
The hope is keeping me from giving up.
I know I enjoy wandering off in hopeless mind.

Beril, 25/05/10

Let go of my dreams

The only thing that belongs to me
And also that is known only by me
Is my dreams; they are me.

It doesn't matter how much I want
It doesn't matter how painful it gets
No, no, no, never ever, never again.

The only thing that I cannot control
And that takes over me and beyond
Is my dreams; they are my core.

It doesn't matter how I screwed it all up
It doesn't matter whatever all was
No, no, no, never ever, never again.

Please! Hear me, hear me out, please!
Oh never ever, no never again
Can I have you, no never again.

Please! Hear me, hear me out, please!
Oh I miss you but oh I need you
To let go of my dreams, oh, please!

No, no, no, never ever, never again
Can I have you, no never again
Oh please, let go of my dreams.

Beril
24/03/10

Lifetime of death

We are born to grow up.
Babies become grown-ups.
It’s a finite loss for all of us;
One day we are to die.

Sometimes it’s our passion.
Sometimes it’s the pure belief.
Sometimes it’s our devotion.
Sometimes it’s the chaste relief.

With each experience
Something stays behind
With each terminated cell
Everyday a bit of us dies.

Sometimes it’s a country.
Sometimes it’s a member of family.
Sometimes it’s a friendship.
Sometimes it’s just an unknown-ship.

Neither will pain fade away
Nor will disappointments go away.
It’s been and is always them
Them are slowly killing us.

We are alive as long as we feel.
We are alive as long as we suffer.
We are alive as long as we fight.
We are alive as long as we crave.

Beril
9/3/10

Dream

You catch my soul by grabbing my hand,
Our bodies in touch, you touch my hair
Your fingers wander on top of my lips
You haul my head, you nibble my tongue
I’m drawn to you oh dear I won’t stop

I dream dream dream
Every day I dream of you
I dream dream dream
This dream is interminable
I dream dream dream
I know I have to rouse
I dream dream dream
Oh but baby, when I do
I dream dream dream
I dream I see you.

You carry me with ease into the room
Or you drag, if it’s the hundredth bloom
When I lie in your brawny arms
It’s one place where nothing harm does
I’m drawn to you oh it’s too late to stop

I dream dream dream
Every night I dream of you
I dream dream dream
Not yet, I can’t let go of you
I dream dream dream
I know I have to wake up
I dream dream dream
Oh but baby, when I do
I dream dream dream
I dream I see you.

You tell worst lies I’ve ever heard
I want to doubt but believe every word
Your breath tickles most intimate spots
You hold me tight, my mind is blown
I’m drawn to you oh baby don’t stop

I dream dream dream
Every day and every night
I dream dream dream
I have you and we’re so hot
I dream dream dream
I know I have to get up
I dream dream dream
Oh but baby, when I do
I dream dream dream
I dream I see you.

Beril
21/02/10

p.s.)Written as lyrics rather than a poem